Sick

03/06/2012

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Hey boys and girls, so those of you who know me probably know that i am sick. I have been sick for about a week and a half and it sucks but thats not what i am posting to talk about. Seems i have have been suffering from insomnia and what felt like dramatic body temperature changes, i have had less control over my ability to think properly. I guess my minds function of self-cenoring is a little off, things that don't even usually enter my mind, seem to be fast tracked in my current state. Now i am talking about messed up dreams and random thought chains through out the day. I haven't posted anything on facebook or said anything to the people around me but still lately my imagination has managed to break free from its leash and gone for a wander.
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For example i had this dream the other day, i don't remember everything but this is what i do remember.
I am on this road trip with about two hundred people that are from random years of my life. We stop at a beach side community which is really familiar but i can't remember where from. Suddenly the mood turns dark, people are going missing, i shadow is hunting us, it looks like the upper half of a human body, oozing darkness. The bodies that i find have no arms or legs, it only feeds on the limbs. I find myself protecting someone, a girl i knew from school, (i didn't really know her that well so i thought this was wierd). I wake up as its feasting on my arm up to my elbow.

Another one was that i was trying to do things that would normally so but i can because i am an animals, well multiple animals........ I admit i dont remember that one well.
Ok this one i voice memoed on my phone as soon as i woke up, ill write it as i said it so this may be a little incoherent:

I am trying to bank seventy dollars for some reason and apparently they are changing over their system so they say that in the mean time i need to change my cash into........cash, what denomination do i want.
So i said the biggest you have, so can i get a fifty and a twenty but it takes me a long time to get to this, its been a long day. can i have a...a... i say something ridiculous that doesn't work out to the right amount of money like a thirty and a sixty, so i say wait thats not right...then i get to a twenty and a fifty, anyway so we are not at a bank, we are on the side of the road, she is writing all the information down in the folder and when it comes time to get the money she puts the folder on the ground and has to climb up on the roof of the one storey place beside us.....with the ladder... two storey building......one and a half.... so she hands me the money like two fives and a twenty and i said, this isn't right so i hand it back and she says oh crap and climbs back on the roof. She does this a few times and it gets to the point where i am willing to take any denomination of the money because i just want to get the fuck out of there.
She is a plump, light hearted person and she seems determined to get me the right money so i don't know why but i just let her do this, she wears glasses but i don't think she can see properly, so i don't really want to correct her and say i will take anything as long as its the right amount because that would sort of admit failure on her behalf.
So anyway it got to about the third time or the fourth time and she climbs back up onto the roof, this time she climbs fully onto the roof, not just standing on the ladder for the money and then suddenly there is this guy who comes and starts talking to her. To me it looks like they are flirting....awkwardly, i find it kind of funny, i stand there and keep quiet. so anyway after a little while he walks away and it seems like an awkward moment like he should have asked her to dinner or something like that but i just stand there and keep my mouth shut. Anyway so he comes back... and he makes some sort of grand gesture... like, we are going to dinner and then he walks away... she seems flustered but she seemed to like him taking control.. or whatever... anyway after he is gone she falls off the roof and i sort of freak out and say to myself ok call an ambulance but everytime i try to dial the number my phone won't let me, it would type other letters instead..so i am looking for another phone so i go into the parking building at the end of the road or i am heading towards there and i see her get up and walk away. I start shouting to her to just lay down and don't get up because ...well she just fell off a building and anyway so she is walking towards the hospital which i realize now is at the other end of the road so.... like ok... i notice this from inside the parking building where i see a guy that looks like blanket man so i assume he is the new blanket man so i say hey blanket man. So she starts running to what looks like a hospital so i am like fuck so i start running towards the door or the parking building and it starts closing. so the door shuts infront of me and i look to the left and see these two buttons, emergancy open, emergancy close... i look behind me and in the distance see the new blanket man and he is chasing this blonde women..... for some reason i don't feel much remorse for her.... so i look back at the buttons and think to myself , technology: learn how to use it bitch(about the blonde women) and so i puch the button but i get this incling that i should be aware of this new blanket man as well, like if i stop and he is there he might transfer whatever cause or whatvever issue he has which causes him to chase this blonde women to me.
So i run around the car park, once the door opens enough i bolt towards the door and at this point for some reason at this same moment is when the blonde women goes for the door. We end up running at the same time and running together down the street. She is freaking out so as we are running i guide her towards the open door and as we run past where the lady fell off the ladder i grab the folder because i don't want random looky loos to look at all of the information and i knock down the ladder to make sure nobody takes the money or looks for it.
Anyway so we are running into the building at the other end of the street but it doesn't seem to be a hospital anymore, so we keep running through this place that is kind of like a food court but.... there is like a sushi bar with tables to the left...umm open window plan.. its a very odd layout like i am running through and then you jump down a storey and then jump down a nother storey...by this point it sort of goes underground but you are still getting natural light from the where we are facing forward.
Anyway at this moment i feel a sense of heightened panic and she says maybe we should stop and i say no, we have to get to the hospital... and i think thats where i wake up. The building at the end is made of glass...and black, the tables wood. not that it is important...
Another one was me in an office building with a gun walking down the hallway looking in the offices and cubicles shouting "YOU LIVE, YOU DIE" and shooting half the people and letting the others live. The people are characters from books, movies and other stuff like thats. I am headed towards this corner office but i wake up before i get there.
Now for the random chains of thought during the days. Most of them have been pretty psycho but there is one that stands out, i think more because of my reaction to it.

I don't know how i reached this thought but that doesn't matter, so someone made a back handed comment about me, i am some distance away but still in ear shot. I turn around and pick up a pair of scissors, making sure that he sees me do this, i walk towards him.. I reapetedly stab my hand into his stomach, what he didn't see was that i turned the handle around the other way so that the sharp side was safely facing the other way. Afterwards when he realises he is not bleeding i laugh and ask him, "What's it like to think your about to die?"
So that was a long and strange post but what is what the internet is for, letting all of the crazy out so you can keep your mouth shut in real life and be a productive memeber of society.

Thanks for reading the post, if you managed to get through it then heres a couple of randoms:
Oh and if you find a lot of spelling mistakes and syntax errors......meh.
 


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