Sick

03/06/2012

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Hey boys and girls, so those of you who know me probably know that i am sick. I have been sick for about a week and a half and it sucks but thats not what i am posting to talk about. Seems i have have been suffering from insomnia and what felt like dramatic body temperature changes, i have had less control over my ability to think properly. I guess my minds function of self-cenoring is a little off, things that don't even usually enter my mind, seem to be fast tracked in my current state. Now i am talking about messed up dreams and random thought chains through out the day. I haven't posted anything on facebook or said anything to the people around me but still lately my imagination has managed to break free from its leash and gone for a wander.
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For example i had this dream the other day, i don't remember everything but this is what i do remember.
I am on this road trip with about two hundred people that are from random years of my life. We stop at a beach side community which is really familiar but i can't remember where from. Suddenly the mood turns dark, people are going missing, i shadow is hunting us, it looks like the upper half of a human body, oozing darkness. The bodies that i find have no arms or legs, it only feeds on the limbs. I find myself protecting someone, a girl i knew from school, (i didn't really know her that well so i thought this was wierd). I wake up as its feasting on my arm up to my elbow.

Another one was that i was trying to do things that would normally so but i can because i am an animals, well multiple animals........ I admit i dont remember that one well.
Ok this one i voice memoed on my phone as soon as i woke up, ill write it as i said it so this may be a little incoherent:

I am trying to bank seventy dollars for some reason and apparently they are changing over their system so they say that in the mean time i need to change my cash into........cash, what denomination do i want.
So i said the biggest you have, so can i get a fifty and a twenty but it takes me a long time to get to this, its been a long day. can i have a...a... i say something ridiculous that doesn't work out to the right amount of money like a thirty and a sixty, so i say wait thats not right...then i get to a twenty and a fifty, anyway so we are not at a bank, we are on the side of the road, she is writing all the information down in the folder and when it comes time to get the money she puts the folder on the ground and has to climb up on the roof of the one storey place beside us.....with the ladder... two storey building......one and a half.... so she hands me the money like two fives and a twenty and i said, this isn't right so i hand it back and she says oh crap and climbs back on the roof. She does this a few times and it gets to the point where i am willing to take any denomination of the money because i just want to get the fuck out of there.
She is a plump, light hearted person and she seems determined to get me the right money so i don't know why but i just let her do this, she wears glasses but i don't think she can see properly, so i don't really want to correct her and say i will take anything as long as its the right amount because that would sort of admit failure on her behalf.
So anyway it got to about the third time or the fourth time and she climbs back up onto the roof, this time she climbs fully onto the roof, not just standing on the ladder for the money and then suddenly there is this guy who comes and starts talking to her. To me it looks like they are flirting....awkwardly, i find it kind of funny, i stand there and keep quiet. so anyway after a little while he walks away and it seems like an awkward moment like he should have asked her to dinner or something like that but i just stand there and keep my mouth shut. Anyway so he comes back... and he makes some sort of grand gesture... like, we are going to dinner and then he walks away... she seems flustered but she seemed to like him taking control.. or whatever... anyway after he is gone she falls off the roof and i sort of freak out and say to myself ok call an ambulance but everytime i try to dial the number my phone won't let me, it would type other letters instead..so i am looking for another phone so i go into the parking building at the end of the road or i am heading towards there and i see her get up and walk away. I start shouting to her to just lay down and don't get up because ...well she just fell off a building and anyway so she is walking towards the hospital which i realize now is at the other end of the road so.... like ok... i notice this from inside the parking building where i see a guy that looks like blanket man so i assume he is the new blanket man so i say hey blanket man. So she starts running to what looks like a hospital so i am like fuck so i start running towards the door or the parking building and it starts closing. so the door shuts infront of me and i look to the left and see these two buttons, emergancy open, emergancy close... i look behind me and in the distance see the new blanket man and he is chasing this blonde women..... for some reason i don't feel much remorse for her.... so i look back at the buttons and think to myself , technology: learn how to use it bitch(about the blonde women) and so i puch the button but i get this incling that i should be aware of this new blanket man as well, like if i stop and he is there he might transfer whatever cause or whatvever issue he has which causes him to chase this blonde women to me.
So i run around the car park, once the door opens enough i bolt towards the door and at this point for some reason at this same moment is when the blonde women goes for the door. We end up running at the same time and running together down the street. She is freaking out so as we are running i guide her towards the open door and as we run past where the lady fell off the ladder i grab the folder because i don't want random looky loos to look at all of the information and i knock down the ladder to make sure nobody takes the money or looks for it.
Anyway so we are running into the building at the other end of the street but it doesn't seem to be a hospital anymore, so we keep running through this place that is kind of like a food court but.... there is like a sushi bar with tables to the left...umm open window plan.. its a very odd layout like i am running through and then you jump down a storey and then jump down a nother storey...by this point it sort of goes underground but you are still getting natural light from the where we are facing forward.
Anyway at this moment i feel a sense of heightened panic and she says maybe we should stop and i say no, we have to get to the hospital... and i think thats where i wake up. The building at the end is made of glass...and black, the tables wood. not that it is important...
Another one was me in an office building with a gun walking down the hallway looking in the offices and cubicles shouting "YOU LIVE, YOU DIE" and shooting half the people and letting the others live. The people are characters from books, movies and other stuff like thats. I am headed towards this corner office but i wake up before i get there.
Now for the random chains of thought during the days. Most of them have been pretty psycho but there is one that stands out, i think more because of my reaction to it.

I don't know how i reached this thought but that doesn't matter, so someone made a back handed comment about me, i am some distance away but still in ear shot. I turn around and pick up a pair of scissors, making sure that he sees me do this, i walk towards him.. I reapetedly stab my hand into his stomach, what he didn't see was that i turned the handle around the other way so that the sharp side was safely facing the other way. Afterwards when he realises he is not bleeding i laugh and ask him, "What's it like to think your about to die?"
So that was a long and strange post but what is what the internet is for, letting all of the crazy out so you can keep your mouth shut in real life and be a productive memeber of society.

Thanks for reading the post, if you managed to get through it then heres a couple of randoms:
Oh and if you find a lot of spelling mistakes and syntax errors......meh.
 
 
Hey boys and girls, its been while since my last post (....again). Everything seems to be really busy, from work to training to family and friends, i just can't seem to find the time to do everything i want to do. Although if i didn't have to sleep i would get so much more done......i know i am not the first person to say that, there are scientists out there working on this problem right now....but thats a thought for another day.

In the middle of everthing thats been going on i also had three tubes of blood taken last tuesday........umm that has nothing to do with the picture......

The picture actually has to do with something that happend the other day. I was bored one day and was scrolling through my news feed on facebook (as you do) and i came across someones post. Now i am going to change it a little because i don't exactly want to make it easy to trace it back to them but the post went:

'I'm going to dinner for my day instead of VD',  my mind the way it is, straight away thinks......Well dinner does sound better then getting VD..... realizing a second later that she meant valentines day.

I know that it was probably just my corrupted mind but please people be careful how you abbreviate.....
Shit could get awkward it your not.

Note: i was about to comment on their post but decided against it. I think i made the right choice.
 
 
Sorry but posting without a pic wouldn't look right and i don't have any related pictures....anyway.

I wanted to do a post about something that happened yesterday or last night New Zealand time. I came across a thread on a website, it had a lot of comments and the youtube video that it was linked to was getting a minimum of 200 comments every ten seconds, so i watched it....

The video was of this asian guy getting beaten up by seven other guys. It was pretty brutal and i didn't enjoy watching it but i have to admt that the internet is a fucked up place and this video is no where near the most messed up thing that i have seen.

What came next is the part that suprised me, within seconds i had access to the seven guys information, I am talking about names, schools, home addresses, phone numbers, facebooks.....everything. People where calling them and abusing them, their facebooks had to be frozen. Then this random girl (lets call her Amie because that was her name and her info was posted too) posted a video on youtube saying that people needed to stop judging as they didn't know both sides of the story. You could imagine what happened to her next.

Next was the creation of memes, stills from the video like one shot of the guy getting beaten up and the words 'get beaten up by 7 guys, just get bleeding nose' and one of the attackers that showed his face at one part saying on the video 'Hold my gloves' to one of his friends also was made into a meme.

Next was the news that one of them had already been arrested. Then the video on youtube of him being arrested.

This all happened over two or three hours. Now as i have tried to do during this post, take your personal feelings of the event that happened and just this about the internet/networking side of it. It is amazing what happens with the technology we have now, it is also a little daunting what we are capable of, if only we were inclined to do so.

I just wanted to end this post with a couple of notes, I think that some people would question that sentence when i talked about them becoming memes, there are memes about everything, for example when that shooting happened in Norway, the shooter (Anders Breivik) became a meme. That one made me feel a little sick.

The other thing is more related to my post as a whole. I was at a friends house and he showed me an episode of Black Mirror (the episode with the prime minister and the pig). I don't want to talk about it here and warning it is not for people who a easily disturbed (or for people who are usually ok with ) but i suggest that some of you check it out. Its unsettling how possible it actually is.
 
 
So i have been thinking about a post on this subject for a long time, now i don't know about you but i have family as friends on my facebook, now this means that i have to be carerful what i say on there (and be careful what is said to me or about me).
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I am one to avoid drama so i don't want something said that will make my family or my mum (yea she's on there too) to make a face like the one to the right.

Now i know that there are changes that you can make to your settings that can block information to certain people but i don't want to do that, I am not that bad and neither are my friends so i feel that type of action would be extreme.

I actually have an example for you that fits this, i was talking to a friend of mine today about this very subject and he explained something that happened to him.

Now he is a normal guy but he has some fucked up friends (as you do) and basically he came on facebook one day and came across a link someone had posted on his wall.

Now i shit you not, it was a video advertising a bondage sex swing... so normal reaction...
delete that shit before grandma ( hahaha yea his grandma is on there) sees it.

To this day he has not heard a word from his family about it so i assume they didn't see it or they knew that his friends were just screwing with him.

Still though, people be careful of facebook.

Don't kill grandma with your cumshot.... Thats a reference not just me being weird.
 
 
it has been a couple of months since my last post but i have good reason.

It has been a very turbulent time, there has been christmas and new years and a whole host of other destractions that have led me away from this website.
Also there has been one more fact why i have not been posting, it has come to my attention that there are facebook groups that do pretty much the same things that this site does except they do it in a more convenient way. 

I could have been all....
But to be honest they are not the first and i don't do this for page views, i see this as an outlet so yea.

If you view, thats great, if not all good, if you critic me then go fuck yourself, the world goes around.
 
 
Hey boys and girls, so today is election day for New Zealand. Admittedly I haven't exactly been watching every debate and reading every pamphlet but i have taken the time to really think about my choice.

Now to those who still haven't voted, take note of a few things:
The people you vote for should not be afraid to do what they have to do for the good of the people.
They should be honest about there intentions and.......
....not just tell you what they think you want to hear for your vote.

Now in the end it's your decision, don't vote for someone just because someone else told you too.

And lastly for those candidates who don't get the votes.....
 
 
So my brain is all...
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......at the moment so this post may be kind of all over the place.

It has been a full on day, actually thought about quitting. In these situations my mind tends to go with two options when i finally finish work:

Option A: Stop buy a takeaway and chow out on some greasy as food that tastes damn good.
or
Option B: Get home, turn the music up loud and take my energy out on punching bag and weights.

I chose....

I know this picture doesn't really match up (actuallly im damn glad it doesn't) but lol, yea.
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Oh and while i'm thinking about it, so i am going to be a god parent.... again, so congrads to them.

Just for general information, i admit i am not the greatest kid person but they can be pretty funny. oh and i'm not like the guy on the right.




soooo.... my mind is getting slower by the second...


So i think its best that i leave it here....
 
 
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So this week hasn't exactly been the best week of my life, in fact there were times during the week when i wanted to do something along the lines of the picture to the right.

In saying this, when your mind is in this mindset victories ( no matter how small ) can make all the difference.

I wont bore you with the details of what happened this moring to make me say this but I will say this,

Money isn't real, remember don't take life too seriously, your not going to make it out alive anyway.

Oh and hey..... it could be worse.....



 
 
So it has been a while since my last post......again, and that sucks but sometimes life gets in the way of things.

You know that feeling when you don't seem to have any control over what you spend your time doing, well that's basically been my life for what seems like too long. Things are changing though, I am getting my head straight and to be honest it feels good to cut some things that i now realize i needed to. I think Jay Z said it best......
I think i will make you work for that reference, lol.

Ok now that's out of the way, lets talk about the fight.
That's right, Pacquiao vs Marquez. I have to hand it to them, it was a good fight. Most of the time i had doubts about who would end up with their hand raised.

If you haven't watched it and its still sitting there recorded on your Mysky or Tivo, nows the time to stop reading.

I know when i say this next part it may cause a lot of the Filipino community to give me a sideways glance but to be truly honest, I don't know if Pacquiao deserved the win. I am not saying that he had his ass kicked but Marquez did have three or four solid rounds that he clearly won and the others where mostly equal.

I am not taking anything away from Pacquiao, infact i still think that pound for pound he is the best boxer out there but this time the decision didn't feel right to me.

Either way if you haven't seen the fight, and you get a chance to, do so.
 
 
I was standing in the middle of a crowd on a calm night. One of the girls i was with says in a cracked voice,
"If they lose, i am going to cry". Although i don't think i would have cried, i did share that feeling down in my gut.
It was almost full time of this gut wrenching close game and in the mess of things it looked for a millisecond that we lost possession and my heart sunk but then the whistle blew.

At that moment the crowd erupted around me, that is a moment i will never forget.

Its been a long time since i have been that proud of New Zealand. The All Blacks have been our team, I would just like to thank them, not only for giving everything they had, the effort, the blood, the spirit but for uniting the country which supported them. It doesn't matter if you were born here, moved here or are just a fan, at that moment New Zealand was one, i could see the joy (and to be honest a little relief) in the faces of everyone i passed.

So Go The All Blacks! Savor this moment, you deserve it.